Everyone knows bad things happen in threes, so we had our requisite 3 tragedies in 2011, with the passing of my grandfather, my step-brother, and Charming’s uncle. Please stop dying, people, my heart can’t handle much more.
I still haven’t been made permanent at my job, despite being here on a contract basis for a year and 4 months now. I live 3 months at a time, holding my breath, never sure if or when I’m going to be thrust unexpectedly into the ranks of the unemployed.
I know how fortunate Charming and I are to both be gainfully employed, at positions we more or less enjoy, in this economy, but the lack of permanency and benefits and PTO means our lives are basically on hold. We can’t buy a house, we can’t travel as much as we’d like (when we do, it costs me more than just the airfare), I can’t afford Invisalign to fix my vampire tooth, and I have to try extra hard not to get hit by a car while biking. I know things could be so much worse, and I know these are #firstworldproblems, but I want to do so much more.
I also took that delightfully graceful tumble off my bike, which left me with a permanent scar on my nose and my right knee. I still can’t kneel on the right knee, so whenever I have to get down on the ground, I look like I’m about to do some Tebowing.
But 2011 had some perks as well.
Obviously, Charming and I got engaged.
While I’m still working through some of my own issues, I know I love this guy (and the fact that he lets me post pictures of him even if he thinks they make him look chunky) and I’m so excited to get married and have a house and a dog and dodge the ‘when are you having kids?!’ question for a few years before we start a family.
2012 will mark the first time I’m able to say “we’re getting married next year!” Which is super-exciting, except for that whole I-actually-have-to-plan-the-wedding-now thing.
And because one man in my life isn’t enough, I also started leasing a gorgeous gelding named Namequest. After 11 years of mainly riding my own horse, Windsor, Quest is pushing me outside my comfort zone and teaching me to be a better rider. And all without dumping by chunky rear in the dirt (yet). I’m so thrilled to be riding again (it keeps me sane[r]), and I’m hoping to maybe compete with him in 2012.
We’ve got a lot to look forward to in 2012, with a good friend’s wedding, planning our own wedding and a trip to Disney (can you believe I’ve never been? My parents were just trying to stunt my growth).
But most importantly to me, in 2012 (August, I hope) I’ll finally finish this 3 year crazy-fest of tears and stress and ridiculousness that is my Masters degree. I’m going to bust my butt working full time and taking two classes a semester this spring and over the summer so that I can be done and finally have the credentials to maybe possibly start earning the kind of salary I’d like to be earning.
It has been an incredible amount of hard work, peppered with fits of mind-numbing stress and anxiety and screaming and whining, but the end is in sight. Charming may be even more relieved when I’m finished than I will.
As for other personal goals in 2012? I’m going to let Jillian Michaels kick my ass with her 30 Day Shred DVD, and I’m really, hopefully, honestly going to start writing more for fun. That was the whole purpose of starting this blog in the first place – to provide a venue to display character sketches, plot lines, short stories, etc. Obviously that idea fizzled out like Herman Cain’s campaign after the public exposure of his hookers. But next year – next year it’s back like Newt Gingrich with a cancer-free wife.
So a million billion thank yous to everyone who has read my blog, commented, or just ended up here by accident while looking for Nazi women in waders- just knowing that someone is listening out there in internet-land gives me the courage to keep throwing my verbal nonsense out into cyberspace.
I hope you all have a wonderful, safe and very sparkly New Years, and if you get a chance, turn on the Liberty Bowl tomorrow and look for me in the crowd – I’ll be the really cold one. Go ‘Dores!